Saturday, May 03, 2003 :::

 

I'm not much in the mood to jack with my website. Seems like I'm always doing something to it. *growling*
I miss my dog. I went out with David and a couple of his friends and they were all talking about their dogs. I miss mine. He was a good dog. A rather picky eater, I'll admit, but he was mine and I loved him. I think I may have some fried chicked today in sort of homage to him. I'm sure if he'd not been killed then he'd certainly be dead now. He didn't exactly have a healthy diet. I want another dog. I just feel like I'm in need of the unconditional love that only a pet can give. And I'm not talking fish here, ya know? How dogs'll look up at you with their big eyes and know just when to lick your face... how they'll growl at you when you've pissed 'em off and in the next breath they'll be nudging you to pet 'em. *sigh* We have a dog now... but she's not mine. She's nice and all, but kind of on the dumb side. She's my brother's dog, and since he's got a house now she'll be moving to Dallas soon. My sis said that I could get a dog then. She kinda knows what it's like for me, I guess. I've never not had a pet. Even when I lived in Houston I had Troi. He's dead now too. I'd like a pug. Thing is, as soon as school starts again I'll be a lot busier and won't have so much time to spend with an animal. And I want a puppy, so I can't just be going off to school and then work and then out and around. In a way I guess I had kind of adopted Lucky... he's a kind of here and now for me. No long-term commitment required. He's all grown up and when school starts for me again he wouldn't hold it against me. I miss him, though. Can't hardly imagine how David's feeling now. I mean... I went over there this morning for something... and David's apt just seemed so big and empty without him. And I've only known the dog for a couple of months. Makes me not ever want to live alone again. Now that all this is going on I can't hardly believe I did, even if it was just for a little while.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:57 AM :::