Thursday, January 29, 2004 :::

Helluva Bad Day
 

This has got to be the worst day I've had in aaaaages.
Squishy managed to chew up David's new glasses last night.
Lucky bit me this morning when I was trying to take his harness off after I walked him.
Fought with David.
I got pulled over on the way to school.. making me late.

d00d gave me a warning. At least I didn't get a ticket.

Fought with David some more.
I was making dinner... I guess to try and smooth things over... only... I didn't expect him to stay. He went out to study last night... but he didn't get to 'cause the guys he was studying with were talking to him. So I figured he'd be studying like a madman tonight. Only... he told me when he walked in that he wasn't gonna be staying at the apt for long.
'Cause he was going to a hockey game with the guys.
I know I shouldn't have gotten upset... only...
*shaking head*
Well I got upset.
*sigh*
So we talked.
And I told him the truth - about how I feel, why I've been snapping at him... and what I want from our rltnship.
He said he didn't know that getting an email from him mattered to me.
I dunno what hurt me more. That he's not been doing that, or that he didn't know it mattered to me.
And I don't want him to change. Not for me. Not for something like this.
I can learn to live with it. I'd rather live with it than leave.
Maybe I should change?

::: posted by tinafish at 8:38 PM :::