Tuesday, September 21, 2004 :::

it does not go well...

I am not taking this as well as we had all hoped.
I am having... unhealthy... thoughts.

I have no idea what I'm going to do.
why does he not see that this all happened because I just wanted him to love me again?


I have been talking to BoB again. He seems genuinely concerned about my safety.
I feel bad... because I do not care what he thinks.
He said that all this sounded familiar. I can see why he would think that... but it is not familiar at all.
When BoB and I broke up I started dating around and got engaged and all that bit. But with David... I do not want anyone else.

I am still sore. My palms are bruised... and my arms, legs, and chest are sore.
It is nothing compared to how I feel inside.

::: posted by tinafish at 6:27 PM :::