Saturday, March 05, 2005 :::
how much are you willing to risk?
have you ever tried dating a friend?
I never have.
the closest I've ever come... was admitting that I wanted to.
he was the closest thing to a best friend I had at the time.
we'd chat for hours every night at work... and for hours during the day when we were both home. we talked about everything... from what we had for lunch to random stories about our childhoods.
our conversations were frank and sincere... for a full year and a half we just got to be closer and closer friends.
then a passing comment...
and my whole view of him changed.
it occurred to me that maybe he was what I was looking for. that he was the lifelong counterpart I'd been hoping to find.
that I still am hoping to find.
me: this whole friendship you and I have
���it's some thing I don't want to lose
���but for the chance
���ya know?
him: yeah
���by the chance, you mean to see if there's something more right
me: the chance to find the love I've been waiting for
him: I know exactly how you feel
sounds like a step in the right direction, eh?
lol
things went to shit in every possible way just a few months after that conv.
we both were forced to make choices we'd been avoiding.
and I was wrong.
I risked everything.
and I lost it all.
::: posted by tinafish at 5:40 AM :::