Wednesday, April 06, 2005 :::

my sleep schedule is just all sorts of fucked
 

justin sleeps nights and is awake during the day... for the most part I tend to sleep in the day and am awake all night.
this can kinda cause some problems.
friday night he fell asleep and I was bored out of my mind, and vise versa saturday morning.
since this weekend my sleep schedule has been all sorts of fucked.

I slept saturday night, and most of sunday... but woke up sunday afternoon. cleaned up a bit, read, and went out w/ lus. fell asleep early monday morning, and woke up fairly early monday afternoon.

monday night I was asleep when kurt called, then woke up again later 'cause I was hungry... then I couldn't go back to sleep so I read a bit and then showered... my dad called yesterday morning so I got up to meet him. so total I slept maybe 3 hours.

I went to see sin city last night w/ doke. the movie's great, btw - amazing to look at. then I stopped by the hospital for lunch w/ my sis... and ~ 0215 or so I came home. I was getting ready for bed when lus called. he was at my front door.
I let the buffoon in, and he convinced me to stay up "2 minutes" with him just to talk about something that's going on w/ his band.
/me sigh
2 minutes my ass.
3 hours later he's still there and trying to convince me to take him to mcdonalds.
I took him home.

while he was there we talked about what I look for in guys I date. I dunno why, but everyone's become mostly obsessed w/ why I don't give justin a real go.
and after t-h-r-e-e h-o-u-r-s of talking I'm still pretty much where I started.
/me shaking head
I've been trying to get better about asking guys I go out w/ questions... but I'm still pretty bad. I just feel that if he wanted me to know something he'd tell me. I dunno why... but like... I just never ask important questions, I guess.
last night the girls at the hospital were playing 20 questions w/ me (about - yeah, justin) and they asked pretty simple questions that I just didn't know the answers to.
I like to think that maybe at some point I knew the answers, just over the course of the month that I didn't talk to the guy I forgot. that's probably what happened, but I guess I wish I remembered. and I don't wanna just ask him again... 'cause he's already given me shit about not saving his phone number.
/me shrug

it's absurdly windy out today.
I've taken 2 calls from people saying their radios have been knocked off their roofs.
my hair's a mess (more than usual, actually) and rafiki almost flew out my window (I've got a stuffed rafiki happy meal toy on my dashboard).
at least I finally put gas.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:49 PM :::