Tuesday, November 23, 2004 :::

in a continued theme of me being a cold hearted bitch...
 

I'm sitting here listening to Barbed Wire and Roses, by Pinmonkey... reminded me of this guy I used to work with... funny story, really... I knew him online, and his sn, and that we worked together, but for the life of me I didn't know who he was irl.
and yeah... after asking around I finally found out who he was... and we went out for lunch or something... and I vividly remember we went to the mall in brownsville, and that we went into hot topic and I was appalled that he actually expected me to go into the store w/ him. (this was back when I dressed like a spice girl and didn't even own a pair of jeans)
anyhow... I remember one day he emailed me the lyrics to this song... apparently he'd taken to listening to country music for me...
*rolling eyes*
Anyway. Enough of an intro.
/me loves this song.

So I'm leaving town tonight... I forgot to do laundry last night... and by "forgot" I mean I didn't stop by an atm so I had no cash to get quarters so I couldn't do laundry.
I think I'm gonna go by my apt and pick up my laundry and take it to my sister's to do it there.
I've gotta get my bum over there either way, since I need to see if I own any shoes that could possibly work w/ the dress I'll be wearing to the wedding.

I'm really nervous about going home. I haven't been back since I left (about 3 years ago). I miss my neices & nephews loads, but I'm not too enchanted about seeing my mom & my sisters again.
And then there are my "friends" back home... yikes, ya know?
I'm fucking whaling. And I'm gonna hear it constantly the whole time I'm down.
(which is ~not~ good for my already low self esteem)
*sigh*
guess I've gotta go back to pretending to be a duck.
heh.

so anyway... I'm leaving tonight.
adrian's gonna watch the shrub for me.
I need to nickname him, too.
I'll hafta think about that one, though.
Speaking of nicknames... apparently a couple of guys here at work aren't too stoked w/ their nicknames... so I may be forced to use their real names only, instead of their real names & nick names interchangeably.
*devastated*
lol

what else? I can't seem to remember what else I was wanting to blog about.
I've just started mapping the route I'll be taking... I hadn't planned on working that out, since I mean...
the valley's south, ya'll. So just head south. I mean... if I hit Mexico just follow the border down to the coast. And I'll be in the valley.
easy enough, ya know?
Just there's some bad weather or something... I've decided to skip houston on my way down... I'll prolly end up going there on Wed night or so... And spending part of thanksgiving in Corpus and part in the Valley.

Ahh yes, now I remember what I wanted to blog about.
Dunno if I mentioned this, since I do try to keep up this facade of a wonderful life, but my mother said I was not welcome at her table for thanksgiving.
She called me this weekend to ask that I do stop by.
I don't know what I'm going to do. I think I'll probably end up regretting it if I do stop by, but I know I'll regret it more if I don't. Like I was saying earlier, I haven't seen my neices or nephews in forever.
So I guess I know what I'll be doing.
So here's to wonderful holidays spent with family.
*sigh*

::: posted by tinafish at 6:47 PM :::